I changed my name on Facebook today. That was weird.
(even weirder that the sentence above is even a thing…) As if FB somehow tells me who I am, but whatever.
It was probably the first time I had actually stopped and thought about a different name. If someone asks me my name these days I kind of stumble and point at my ring and grin and stammer out something stupid about being confused and happy and tired. So sleepy.
But looking at the cursor blinking at me and a new name stopped me in my tracks. Honestly, life since Apr 1st has been a whirlwind. Moving out of Atlanta, crossing the Gulf in a boat (gulp!), planning and being in a wedding, family visits, honeymoons (hello awesome!!!) and reality of living on a boat. None of that leaves much time for self reflection – more or less I just show up to each day and smile. Who knows what the hell might happen – might as well smile!
I have been in Atlanta twice since I left – and I cried and begged (maybe not out loud) to stay both times. Then a sunset cruise makes me so happy I can barely stand myself as I crawl in my cozy boat bed, with a husband!!!! Then I lug laundry to the gross public washing machine and pay in quarters to have marginally clean clothes and I am grumpy.
Needless to say – keeping up with my wild ride of emotions is no small task. Feel free to pray for Bo. He is a champ.
Somewhere in all that Bo asks “wanna write a blog?” and I shake my head vigorously. But we make deals: “I will write a blog if you have a workout”. I am probably not supposed to tell you about our deals – but hey, I am writing and he is doing squats!
And I sit at this keyboard more confused than ever.
There is this whole faction of “Cruisers” who blog. (Cruisers are people who live on their sailboats and “cruise” around. Technically – WE are cruisers. Almost.) They write about #boatlife and talk WAY too much about fixing their boats and what the wind is doing.
If you want to know – sailing = there is either too much wind, too little wind, or wind in the wrong direction. Sailing in good wind is pretty much never from what I can tell. Anyways…
Then there is the blogger I used to be – the funny one who kinda told inappropriate things – but they were super funny so we all tolerated it.
Then there is the blogger I used to, used to be. The super christian one. Who wrote holy things and inspired people and talked about Jesus a lot.
And so the cursor in front of Allison Cordle blinks. And I can’t for the life of me figure out what kinda blog I am supposed to write. All of the above is the logical answer, but that is bound to bunch up someone’s panties in a wad. The sailing people will be confused by the Jesus talk and the church people will be confused by the cussing. There is bound to be cussing.
It is easier to just eat cheesecakes and look up workouts for Bo to do.
I’m beyond excited to hear how you meld Jesus life with cussing and hilarity and #boatlife. It’s bound to be a hit. Nobody else can fill this niche. Miss your smiles friend! Also… poor Bo. I know what you’re workouts are like.
I just LOVE you Allison!!!!
one day at a time… smiles, sunsets, cocktails, & that husband help. you’ve got this, no doubt.
smiling…
I love this
No matter how things change, your consistent, incorrigible honesty always shines through and touches our hearts.
Love you Alli
Bo & I both said “what does incorrigible” mean????
Just love you and love this!! So much is ahead of you both!! So much!!
Delightfully honest and humorous. Thank you for making me laugh out loud. And as a sailor, I get it–Jesus and all.
Thank you Shelley! It is a funny world we live in 🙂
Kinda what Aslhey said – I have frequently (unfortunately too frequently) referenced “Jesus” then “ahhh <#($*(@" in consecutive sentences – can't wait to hear you to take your turn… Tell us where you are out there and keep 'em coming sister!
You write amazing thoughts. One thought I have about your name on FB is leave your maiden name in the middle. Historically, the female dropped her middle name and her last name became her middle name. If you do this,then all of us who remember you from the old days can find you.
Congratulations on your marriage to Bo Cordle.
Will love and look forward to your blogging this season and whatever it looks and sounds like!! Don’t be too hard on Bo 😉 Love you two!!!
Just write, we will keep reading, cause it’s bound to entertain us all on many levels!!
Miss you!!!!
love this and you all. Tell Bo to call Mark if he wants to vent about all the first year of marriage crying! I was a professional sober and tantrum thrower during our first year! Shoot! I still am! Stay strong!!! Love you!
I have to steal your words, “HOLY SUGAR”! Your writing is good when you don’t even know what to write! Love you two! Ps. Go easy on Captain Bo!!!!!
Allison, I have just started reading your blogs about a week or so ago. I am not very good at keeping track of what day it is in the boat world. It is not really a calendar schedule, but more of a wind schedule haha. I think you guys are awesome! And kudos to your courage. My husband and I started the boat world with our kids a year ago, but really into it almost six months ago, but we ditched the “rat race” three years ago. I am sure you know what I mean when I say it is definitely a different life style. Anyways, one of your comments really stood out to me about being Christian and people not understanding the Jesus world and cussing. I completely understand what you mean. Trust me. I have been studying and seeking a degree in Christian Ministry for a few years, but have switched over to Biblical and Theological Studies. I love Jesus, but hate religion. I am an outsider in church, but a believer in God. Since we have not met I can only assume I understand what you are feeling. If you ever want to chat hit me up. Safe journeys and good wind to you and your new hubby.
Thank you Kristina! I completely understand what you say about the wind schedule. Everything depends on that dang wind!! 🙂 I am pretty in love with the Jesus dude too – all the junk that comes with it, not so much. Thanks for your understanding and support! Hopefully we will see you out on the water somewhere!!
Did I ever tell you that I lived aboard a sailboat for a year in my twenties? Grew up around boats. Gennie, now 21, lived aboard a friend’s boat last summer. Fair and following winds to you on this adventure!
Thank you! Whole new world, this sailing stuff 🙂
At the risk of sounding like a crazy, creepy online stalker (I mean, we ARE strangers with the SAME NAME), you don’t know me but I love your writing. I stumbled onto this blog accidentally. I thought I was typing my website URL into my phone, but was actually googling it… this all makes sense when you understand that the URL is basically my name… and your name… our name?? Anyway, I started reading the posts because they’re just so darn entertaining and interesting and honest. I know nothing about sailing, but your blog makes me want to try it, and travel more, and do things that scare me! I hope you keep the posts coming and keep inspiring total strangers to live a more adventurous life 🙂
Might be my favorite comment ever!! Thank you so, so much for your kind words!